I just don't know what to say after Spanky's post
link. I went out with my friends tonight to realize that 13 years of my life will be concluding before I choose. However after his post I am not sure that I should feel as sad as I do. Spanky has made some wonderful points: we have a house, 2 cars, he has a job and as of Friday I will not, however, we do feel the effects of the falling economy. With sales down at my job by 23% this year it is a hard to take. I am grateful that I have an internship in the spring. I am also grateful that Spanky has a wonderful job (he may argue this point sometimes!) But it is hard and sad for me to say goodbye to a place that I have worked hard at and been with for so long. We have went thru some rough times in the 13 years I have been there, but nothing like this.
I have mixed emotions at this time. I know that my boss didn't want to let me go, however, I am the obvious choice. Only working part time and leaving in December what was he to do? I guess that it is sad because I am so used to waking up every Monday, Wednesday and Friday and making the drive into the office, that I am not sure what I am going to do. I should study and will study, this gives me prime time while the kids are at school, but I don't think that, NO, I know that it will be a very strange time for me. I have always worked.
This has been a very emotional day for me, and it is probably a good thing that Spanky let me go out. I probably would have been a pain in his ass. I have always taken pride in what I do, and feel loyal to my boss, but I know he has to do what is best for the company. That doesn't help in the sadness that I feel, but I am thankful for so many other things.
Thanks for taking the time to read my ramblings. You all truely do help.
